Ho Hum
I find myself in a rare state of ho hum. It’s been an interesting spring, one of unknown or not wanting to know, changes and shiftings in the sands of my life. I’m certainly open to some changes in my overall existence but I find that I still want to control those changes and during these times control is being exposed more and more as an illusion. Truly, if I go back to when I firsts started studying Hinduism/Buddhism etc in the late ’60′s, I remember the wise counsel of how all of this is illusion/maia………….and how we aren’t supposed to get trapped in it. I’m trapped in it up to my armpits this spring. Extricating the sticky tentacles of desire, frustration and all of those human ego emotions that lead me right back to the core of I still want control, my big fat ego.
I haven’t figured it out yet, how to give it up, surrender, let go, momentary flashes at best.
So, the universe, in its infinite wisdom, is letting go for me….:>)
Stay tuned, who knows where I’ll land.
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