Sue Moon’s Blog

What would our lives be like without our loved ones?  And how do we keep the love in these relationships?

I had a lot of loved ones around me before I graduated from high school and moved away.  Through distance, time and deaths the family dynamics changed radically.  The ones left aren’t so easy to connect with in a real way.

That is a struggle for me.  My current family doesn’t like confrontations within the family; they want everything to be “nice”. They don’t want you to think anything is wrong.   I never really fit in with that.  I have retreated from “real” love in these relationships.  I don’t rock anybody’s boat very often, but we also don’t have a very close family.

It takes a lot of energy to keep a loving relationship going.  A lot of compromise, understanding, fun times and a desire to be around each other.  I find in my family an unwillingness to change, or rigidity in thoughts about each other, that does not allow love in.

I do believe that there is love in there, but when it has an agenda it becomes something else.  A controlling love.

And it is funny, people think I have a close and loving family.  People see what they want to.

I want to see what is real.