Sue Moon’s Blog

The past few days have been ones of transitioning. Going to a birthday party in the evening to a place I don’t know how to get to is way out of my comfort zone. I got lost, drove around in circles and then ran over a large block of wood that felt as if it were destroying my car, only to arrive at the party and not know anyone for hours and then an old boyfriend I didn’t want to see shows up.

The next day a dear friend lost her young father in law unexpectedly, a time of deep sorrow. A time of gathering together to cook and comfort and clean up the messes so many mourning adults and children create.

The day after back to a hospital I have a lengthy history with. I was born there, my first child was born there, I worked there for many years. Many unresolved issues in that hospital. Went to visit the Father of a friend I have known for years and thought highly of. Arriving at his room the nurse tells me he just passed. Unknowingly they thought I would want to say goodbye. I would rather have the memories of his sweet face without the death mask. He was still warm.

Today as I look at my schedule and see all that has to be done, I want to go away. Physically. I have already gone away from many things in my life by pulling my focus off of them. If I seem a little distant, it is because I am. Pulling back, where am I in all of this?