Sue Moon’s Blog

I have to laugh at the above questions.  It really wasn’t all that long ago when I was asking those questions.

The more I fretted and worried and watched in disbelief as my life crumbled down around me, the harder it was to see a way out.  I felt like I was in some archetypal forest with sharp tree branches tearing my clothes and scratching my body and face, it was cold and rainy and so dark.  Where was I to find refuge?  Why wasn’t anyone there to see my plight?  Why was this going on for so long?  Where was my family?

Sort of like the “unutterable groaning” talked about in the Bible, I believe.  That certainly sums those years up.  The biggest fear at that time was there would be no way out and the rest of my life would flow down into quiet desperation.

I love the clarity that comes after those dark passages.  How fulfilling the quiet morning is.  How rich the exchange between two people.  How full life really is.

So now I have come to the point in my life where it is “working” and what is important are the daily moments of joy.  As I focus more on the unseen I see at last that what I was seeking externally is now being filled internally.