Sue Moon’s Blog

By this time in my life I shouldn’t be surprised at recurring events……but I am.

Endeavoring to stay in a state of peaceful happiness I get thrown off course when the old issues come up…..thinking they must be healed by now…….why is this happening again???

I like the place where I feel like a big beautiful rock and the ocean waves are crashing all around and I am still the rock, unmoving, not judging the water, enjoying the spray.  Not always a place I get to stay in.  And that water wears down this lovely rock.

Today is another opportunity to look at old buried hurts and to see if I can heal them more deeply this time without the same old patterns kicking in.  Breathe, I tell myself, look deeply inside and see your part.  I can own my part if I’m honest.  I have to be honest.

There are images in here I find I haven’t wanted to let go of.  People, places, things, long gone still holding me in a pattern of loss and regret.  I put mourning off after loss and so it returns diligently to be healed over and over, again and again.

Perhaps today I will mourn my past and ceremoniously bury it in my park.