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Samhain/Halloween

A good night indeed to make peace with the dead and begin the casting of wishes and dreams for the coming year.

Today in all of your busy activities, take time to be thankful for the year behind.  Many lessons were learned, many outmoded styles of thought, action, people, places and things have been released.

Meditations tonight will be especially foretelling.  My Dad came to me in a reverie and spoke of things yet to come.  It left me feeling done with the past and ready to charge into the future.

Ancient Origins

Halloween’s origins date back to the ancient Celtic festival of Samhain (pronounced sow-in).

The Celts, who lived 2,000 years ago in the area that is now Ireland, the United Kingdom, and northern France, celebrated their new year on November 1. This day marked the end of summer and the harvest and the beginning of the dark, cold winter, a time of year that was often associated with human death. Celts believed that on the night before the New Year, the boundary between the worlds of the living and the dead became blurred. On the night of October 31, they celebrated Samhain, when it was believed that the ghosts of the dead returned to earth. In addition to causing trouble and damaging crops, Celts thought that the presence of the otherworldly spirits made it easier for the Druids, or Celtic priests, to make predictions about the future. For a people entirely dependent on the volatile natural world, these prophecies were an important source of comfort and direction during the long, dark winter.

To commemorate the event, Druids built huge sacred bonfires, where the people gathered to burn crops and animals as sacrifices to the Celtic deities.

During the celebration, the Celts wore costumes, typically consisting of animal heads and skins, and attempted to tell each other’s fortunes. When the celebration was over, they re-lit their hearth fires, which they had extinguished earlier that evening, from the sacred bonfire to help protect them during the coming winter.

By A.D. 43, Romans had conquered the majority of Celtic territory. In the course of the four hundred years that they ruled the Celtic lands, two festivals of Roman origin were combined with the traditional Celtic celebration of Samhain.

The first was Feralia, a day in late October when the Romans traditionally commemorated the passing of the dead. The second was a day to honor Pomona, the Roman goddess of fruit and trees. The symbol of Pomona is the apple and the incorporation of this celebration into Samhain probably explains the tradition of “bobbing” for apples that is practiced today on Halloween.

By the 800s, the influence of Christianity had spread into Celtic lands. In the seventh century, Pope Boniface IV designated November 1 All Saints’ Day, a time to honor saints and martyrs. It is widely believed today that the pope was attempting to replace the Celtic festival of the dead with a related, but church-sanctioned holiday. The celebration was also called All-hallows or All-hallowmas (from Middle English Alholowmesse meaning All Saints’ Day) and the night before it, the night of Samhain, began to be called All-hallows Eve and, eventually, Halloween. Even later, in A.D. 1000, the church would make November 2 All Souls’ Day, a day to honor the dead. It was celebrated similarly to Samhain, with big bonfires, parades, and dressing up in costumes as saints, angels, and devils. Together, the three celebrations, the eve of All Saints’, All Saints’, and All Souls’, were called Hallowmas.

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Thanksgiving/Astrology for November

Thanksgiving/Astrology for November

Naturally we think of Thanksgiving during this month close to the conclusion of 2006.  How has this past year gone?  Have we been grateful for what we have received?

We have five planets in Scorpio with a Scorpio Mercury Retrograde.  Scorpio is about transformation at the deepest levels, the transformation that comes before a birth.  Some people will be having wild mood swings or become a little desperate, but all of us will be transforming.  It is your choice how this manifests.  Watch your thoughts, what are you dwelling on?

Mercury retrograde in Scorpio allows you the time to bring out those shadows that long to be healed and it also lets you clean your closets, literally and figuratively.  I always re-organize during these times, good energy for that!!

The Mayan calendar heralds November 24th as one of the strongest energy portals since 1999.  This will heighten our intuitions and probably increase the turbulence all around the world.

Scorpio is like a snake wanting to shed its skin……….are you ready to shed your skin?

Bountiful Jupiter returns to it’s natal sign of Sagittarius on Thanksgiving-abundance-expansion of wherever you are…….so be in a good place this month and delve deeply into your therapists arms for a fresh start in your life!!!!

The Taurus Full Moon on November 5th will bring a deep desire for all of us to get past our prejudices and judgments and come into tolerance and acceptance for the good of all.  This is not an easy full moon, but it can be very transformative.

There is a Scorpio New Moon on Monday, November 20th.  I find this to be so powerful that I’m holding space for 2 hours of guided meditations at the Omaha Healing Arts Center that night from 6:00-8:00 pm.  http://www.omahahealingarts.com/

Major life changes are possible now.  Have you learned your lessons well?  This is a SPIRITUAL CROSSROADS…….you get to decide if you have been on the right path or is it time to re-think.

Understanding and forgiveness are the themes this month and no one needs that more than you do!!

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Fearless Moral Inventory

Today I was starting to go down that path of seeing the world as filled with wrongdoings that need to be righted.

And as serendipity came in during my morning meditation I was reminded of how important it is to look to myself first.   To be careful that I use a discriminating wisdom when I view life.

My marker now is when I become righteously indignant to follow an AA teaching of “fearless moral inventory”.

This is to see clearly.  Recognizing our own wrongdoings to self and others first before rushing out to cure the world.

Jack Kornfield talks about having to end our isolation by seeing and telling the difficult truth to ourselves and to one another, but always in the spirit of compassion, and in the knowledge of interconnection.  We have to learn that we can trust the truth and that the truth will lead to freedom.

To see without any harsh judgment.  Knowing that any teaching has its wisdom and its folly and to be able to sift through and take what is best for us.  This means we are not looking for perfection, but willing to see both sides.

I am taking this view into how raped our country has become by vast corporations.  Learning all I can about what is actually going on, why this has occurred and how to change that in me which created it.

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Security

Security is mostly a superstition.  It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of humans as a whole experience it.  Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure.  Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

-Helen Keller

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Honesty and Pedestals

Someone I like and admire emailed me today about the direction the Dailies have taken.   Especially the vulnerability and intimacy of them.  In some ways she was grateful, confused and uncomfortable with much of it.  Just like me.  My reply is below:
Thank you so much for your honesty.

I do not want to be on anyone’s pedestal and that is way I am opening myself up to be totally vulnerable.  Totally intimate.  It is the scariest and most liberating thing I have ever done.  My ego is starting to line up with my soul and I have desired a healthy ego for so long.  I am not a guru, I am the same as you.  Hopefully we all learn from one another without someone having to be better.

Most of us intellectually know a great deal……..I am putting the words into my heart and into my practice.  I am finally walking my talk.  I also am bringing out the shadows to be healed and as I heal them in myself I see them healing in my family and in my practice.  This is my part in healing the world, I am healing myself.

Every time I put out the Dailies a little fear comes up and says no one will respect you if you show who you really are.  Some days I can’t even write it.

We are truly all here together, in the same boat, no matter how glorious or unattainable some of us look, that is still just part of the illusion.  I’m sick of the illusions, they rob me of my life.

This reply is my Daily today, I wondered what it would be.

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The List

Last night I sat down and began my list of all the people, places and things that are no longer in my life.  My intent was to honor these things and then to bury the list in the park under a big old oak tree.

What a stunning list it became and still sits here on my desk.  I am not finished with it yet.  It has taken on a life of its own; the words aren’t just ink on paper.  The list is becoming 3 dimensional and I am in a swirling mist of memories.

I thought this would be easy.  I would write the past down, forgive myself and others and be done with it.  I had no idea there would be a lifetime of loss pouring out onto paper.

As I look at this unfinished business I begin to see the greatness of it.  Unique treasures from a life no one else lived but me.  Nobody else has this story.

I’m so glad I began this list, it has reconnected me to a story I have been writing for many years

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Again and again and again

By this time in my life I shouldn’t be surprised at recurring events……but I am.

Endeavoring to stay in a state of peaceful happiness I get thrown off course when the old issues come up…..thinking they must be healed by now…….why is this happening again???

I like the place where I feel like a big beautiful rock and the ocean waves are crashing all around and I am still the rock, unmoving, not judging the water, enjoying the spray.  Not always a place I get to stay in.  And that water wears down this lovely rock.

Today is another opportunity to look at old buried hurts and to see if I can heal them more deeply this time without the same old patterns kicking in.  Breathe, I tell myself, look deeply inside and see your part.  I can own my part if I’m honest.  I have to be honest.

There are images in here I find I haven’t wanted to let go of.  People, places, things, long gone still holding me in a pattern of loss and regret.  I put mourning off after loss and so it returns diligently to be healed over and over, again and again.

Perhaps today I will mourn my past and ceremoniously bury it in my park.

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Libra New Moon – October 21-22

Once a month we get an opportunity to re-think our path.  We are offered an opportunity to look more deeply into our lives.  Are we getting the most out of the direction we have chosen?

We also can change course more easily at this time.  Libra brings a silky elegance to this 10 day period of change (Oct. 17 till Oct. 27) and Mars the warrior lover is flowing in Libra honoring the Moon (emotions) with anything she wants.  This is the time to smooth out all of your relationships.

With other luminaries aligned for making love and not war, this is a time to profess what you want the world to be like.  Imagine a world without war……….imagine all the people living lives of peace………..John Lennon sang it so well…..IMAGINE PEACE.

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The Real Teachings

Actually there is no real teaching at all for you to chew on or squat over. But not believing in yourself, you pick up your baggage and go around to other people’s houses looking for the way, looking for mysteries, looking for awakenings, looking for masters, looking for teachers. You think this is searching for the ultimate and you make this into your religion.

But this is like running blindly. The more you run, the farther away you are. You just tire yourself, to what benefit in the end?

-Zen Master Foyan

A young monk asked the Master, “How can I ever get emancipated?” The Master replied, “Who has ever put you in bondage?”

-Advaita Teachings

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Spiritual Gifts

Looking back through the past of so many spiritual experiences in this life (and aren’t they all just that!);  It’s like candy, little/big nanoseconds/months of experiencing ecstasy.  The peaceful bliss that reminds us of our real selves.  The wildly ecstatic joy that redefines our cells.

But today, it is back to the laundry.  The myriad of errands that keep the human life in motion and mostly devoid of the ecstasy.  Rumi, that great Persian Poet extraordinaire states it so eloquently:

This being human is a guest house.  Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all, even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture.

Still treat each guest honorably; he may be clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.

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Miracles

Most of us are taught that miracles can happen, but maybe not to us………to those guys over there, and in readings from the Bible etc.  So when a miracle happens we can even try to naysay it and play it down, maybe it didn’t really happen.

And what is our definition of a miracle?  Are we even open to receiving miracles?

One happened to me last night quite unexpectedly and quite serendipitously.  Something I had been praying for years about came to pass.  A person came into my life and opened me up like a ray of sunlight.  I had a spontaneous healing of an old issue.  It left me filled with a joyous peace and blessedness.  I slept without tossing and turning or grinding my teeth and awoke at 3:00 am in an altered state of bliss.  How natural this seemed to be.  I sat up and knew god, or rather, I was god…….I saw my individual self and I saw the universe and so much I cannot possibly put into words.  I experienced a knowing that anything I truly desired was mine.  I was without the blocks and neuroses that keep me in the dark.  It was a very fresh feeling and totally indescribable.

I awoke this morning and I remembered other similar times in my life and wondered how do we stay in these places?  I am still peaceful, but back into myself again.  Altered, definitely.

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Friday the 13th

Sun-Venus-Mars in Libra all within 5 degrees of each other.  Enjoy this for the next 10 days.  Should smoothe over all your relationships.  Libra likes to balance things out, Venus and Mars are the feminine and masculine and the Sun is our personal power.

Today would be an easy day to open your heart and look deeply at your relationships.  Start with the one you have to yourself.  Finding harmony with our own masculine and feminine energies can lead to a happier internal state.  Then look around, is there someone in your family or community you could have a healing conversation with?

Healing the smallest of hurts can generate the courage to heal the larger ones.

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Spiritual Activism

This is the call.  Wake up and play your part.  Why are you here?  What did you come to do?

Put down the activities that take your time in busy little ways.  Take back your life and do something with it now.

“We must live in such a way that the splendor of our lives, the passion of our lives, and the beauty of our lives reaches out in a flame of divine passion that awakens the divine passion in others.

The one hope for the future lies in Sacred Activism – the fusion of the deepest spiritual knowledge and passion with clear, wise, radical action in all the arenas of the world, inner and outer.

We have very little time in which to awaken and transform ourselves, to be able to preserve the planet, and to heal the divisions between the powerful and the powerless.  Let us go forward now with firm resolve and profound dedication.”

-Andrew Harvey
http://www.andrewharvey.net/
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Autumn Death

When death comes like the hungry bear in autumn;  when death comes and takes all the bright  coins from his purse to buy me, and snaps the purse shut………………….

I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering: what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?

And therefore I look upon everything as a sisterhood and a brotherhood……………

And I think of each life as a flower, as common as a field daisy, and as singular…….

And each body a lion of courage, and something precious to the earth.

When it’s over, I want to say:  all my life I was a bride married to amazement.  I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms……….

-Mary Oliver

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Feelings

Feelings are what connect us here in this life. Without feelings life would be flat. When looking at a flower or graceful tree, deep feelings of appreciation and joy can arise. To be able to feel is one of our greatest gifts.

The trick is to not get caught up in our feelings, but to understand them and allow them to flow like water, uninterrupted, always changing, lifting to heights, dropping to depths……..moving……change.

This last Full Moon in Aries while Venus is in Libra turned out to be a very emotional one for me, some of my friends, family and clients.

Emotions were running high in a schizophrenic kind of way. Turning people inside out with female/male issues.

Now that we are almost out of range from that October 7th Full Moon (5 days before and 5 days after), hindsight begins to surface and to clarify some of these feelings.

When we have old feelings that have not been dealt with they will surface during these powerful times. Once again they beg to be healed, not to be buried alive until the next opportunity arises.

When we can be present with our own feelings and not continue to blame others, the healing begins. We stubbornly cling because we fear that once we undertake the healing of emotions the deeper work of healing our ancient pain and sense of isolation begins.

Jack Kornfield states this so eloquently, “We fear the destructive power of our emotions when we haven’t seen them for what they really are……..we need to see the “body of fear”, to see how the hurt and frustration of childhood, the forces of anger, greed, pride, sexual longing, and need have been conditioned in us. Experiencing the full range of these feelings as they come and go in our consciousness, we can begin to ask of each the question “Is this who I am?” If we can hold our feelings in a spacious and fearless heart, the lonely, broken, spiteful, confused feelings arise in a new way, transformed by our acceptance.”

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Autumn and Food

The air is full of change and preparation.  I love this time of year.  It makes me feel more alive.  It certainly fits the pattern of my life, change and preparation for the next season.

Cooking at this time of the year is all about sturdiness and grounding and filling up the corners of the body.  I stock my cabinets full, filling jars with rice and lentils and beans and seaweed and such.  Excited about the many soups I will create from a varied supply of the harvests.

Most of my life has revolved around food; the growing, harvesting, preparation and serving.  And now culmination-teaching and giving back a lifetime of love and study.

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Frailties

“When confronted by a human being who impresses us as truly great, should we not be moved rather than chilled by the knowledge that she might have attained her greatness only through her frailties?”                          Lou Andreas-Salome

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3 Tests

I’ve been grappling with everything lately.  Sorting out and sorting through the way I think, live, feel and if that is truly in alignment with what I want.  I am especially analyzing all of my relationships.  Do they still work?  Have we grown apart?

Communication is important and under the scrutiny of my fervor these days.  After dissecting some potent communications and being a little righteously indignant, my friend Susan, sent me the below.  I love it!

3 Tests:

Before one says anything to another, it must pass these 3 tests:

Is it true?           Is it helpful?        Is it kind?

I do pretty well with the first two……….and now I’m focusing on the 3rd.

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Relationships

The struggle for honesty in relationships is an old issue.  I’m not so sure it hasn’t been worn out.  At least the part where people tell each other, “I’m just being honest, if you are offended, that’s your problem.”  Hmmm, as with all of life the contrasts are so telling; black and white, love and codependence, male & female.  Is it being honest to place wounding from the past on a current situation that has nothing to do with the old?  Is it being honest to spew forth old resentments to a current situation?  Maybe it is impossible not to.

I think it is a little like mental masturbation.  It doesn’t have anything to do with the other person.  Just ruminating through old issues that keep coming forward to be healed.

Responsibility is another struggle with unsolved issues.  What is a person’s responsibility in what they say to another?

I think that forgiveness of our past is integral for any healthy relationship.  And forgiveness opens us up to the long process of rage, sorrow and grief.  Forgiveness does not mean we condone the past hurts but rather we simply let go of past pain and hatred.  Then through the soft energy of kindness we are free from the pain and repetition, we no longer need to carry our pain into our future relationships.

Is there any other game in town?

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A Little Off Center

I’m smiling today because I get another opportunity to see myself.  For now, I am happy about that and not running away from it.  This day sees me happy to understand how I get off center.

There will always be something to pull you away from who you are and what you believe in – always.  These are tests on our path and I am glad they are there.  Keeps my ego in check-keeps me hunting for healthy ego aligned with soul.  Keeps my life interesting.

Lately, as some of you may have noticed, I’ve gone a little overboard with fear of our political infra-structure and the loss of personal freedom.  All the rumors and facts surrounding 9/11, and more.  It can become an all-consuming righteous indignation laced with fear.

Thank Goddess for friends who love us and offer, sometimes, our own words back to us.  One of mine reminded me of this Carolyn Brent quote:

Although it is often challenging to remember or even grasp, every single person or situation we encounter provides us with a reflection or mirror of how well we are relating to our self and to our life. If we truly understood this, then wars would end because we would know that the war outside of us is reflecting the war inside us. This means that until we know peace within ourselves we won’t experience peace outside ourselves.

Healthy relationship with our selves occurs when we can genuinely accept what IS and stop trying to force others to be the way we think they should be. If we have felt wronged or hurt by another the solution or resolution is not outside of us. This is tricky because it is so much easier to see what is outside as the cause or what is to blame. Whenever we are in the space of blame or feeling wronged we have an opportunity to heal something within ourselves through radical compassion and forgiveness beginning with first ourselves and then the situation and all those involved. This shifts our experience bringing the ability and responsibility to change our experience back to our willingness to forgive ourselves and each other – trusting that by doing so we will then attract experiences into our life that reflect the healing power of self-forgiveness, self-love, forgiveness of others and the situations that have wounded or harmed us or those we love.

And another friend offered this:

Eventually one has to go to their center and ask, “OK what do I personally do about this. What can I do short of becoming a liberal, radical activist, polarized to the other, extreme?”

The truth is that the world is at war. Not so much country to country, but the human species is at war with itself. Have’s with the have not’s. Christian/Muslim, etc. etc. all the way in every direction. Complete chaos.

I have done many things, I’ve been politically active to a minor degree, praying a lot, worrying too much-signing petitions, writing and calling my congressmen.

In the end, we go to our centers and take a stand. We go there to see if we stand for anything and if so what? It gets tricky when we as spiritual warriors examine what’s going on then see where we fit into the puzzle. Don’t you think?

When the Nazi’s took over, there was a lot of 20/20 hindsight, but in the end people made choices as to what to do when it came to their town. We get to do that in the end just like in the beginning. It’s all choices.  Peace

Today is a good day, I’m back on my center………..who knows what tomorrow will bring, that isn’t in my moment right now.

Peace and the blessing of how short a journey this is, how much we learn and grow each time…..how great the discovery is that it is really all about remaining in our center and being true to ourselves.  Chunking it down so it is doable!

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